she cried in skol today...i was shocked...it was a sudden break down. or maybe it was muh fault. or maybe it was their fault? or maybe is was our fault? i dunno...but she cried. she jus break down. i followed viv to the toilet to see her. ok...saw her senior there. she went into a cubicle and cried all her heart out. then one by one our grp came in. or her 'enemy'. her intention was for us to go out. we gav in..we went out,bak to class. there,we argued. they were talking bad loudly bout her when she was jus sitting right behind them. i cld hear them in front....i knew she felt bad. i pitied her...i ask them to lower down their volume..all in vain. soon after she came out...but when she saw us outside the toilet,she rushed bak in. dunno wad to do,we went bak. leaving 2 to console her. we might be her 'enemy',she might be our 'enemy'. but we're all classmates. wld we stand there,do nth n laff at her? impossible...theres still at least a bit of feeling there..whyy carn the little feeling turn slightly bigger? maybe all these wld'nt had happened?
yupss...so the 2 did a great job. 3of them came bak. looking worried...2 of them kno how she felt n think. maybe we're too harsh towards her. maybe we shld hav gav her that 3rd chance. but we're all thinking...wld she backstab us again? wld there be anothr chance that theres anothr prob? haix... i'm confused..seriously confused. both sides are right and wrong...but its up to me to choose since both sides doesnt wan to giv in. YES,there may be a chance for her to backstab me again....but i can see the gd change in her since the beginning of the prob. i shld hav given her the chance. NO,by goin wif her,or giving her that chance,i might lose quite a number of gd fwens. but izzit worth it to lose a number of fwens n go wif her,alone? n oso risking the chance of being backstabbed once again? i'm reali confused...this prob hav been bugging me for such a long tym n i guess i shld hav vent it all out. haizz...wad prevented me frm making the decision is my conscience. by choosing 1 among the both sides...they hav been my gd fwens...but izzit rong to make a new fwen? they dun like her..but wadd if i giv her the chance? wld my fwen ignore me jus to avoid her? i wld'nt kno wld i? they hate her being emotional...always crying all the time. n crying...always let her win. shes at fault in the 1st place n wad rights do she got to cry?! she jus wan us to pity n giv in to her. it may seems that crying helps. but in fact,it do not. its only making matter worse...it lets ppl kno that u're in the rong thats why u cry. they think it this way. but hav they considered her feelings? when she heard them talking bad bout her right in front of her,how wld she feel? i bet if i was the one,i wld hav cried on the spot. it was brave for her to hold her tears at that tym....
i guess its obvious that i'm stuck right in the middle. wad can i do? can anyone tell me? i've always been trying to please both sides. hoping they wld giv in n become fwens one day. but things only get worse. seriously i'm sick of this...i'm definitely breaking down sooner or later. its jus the matter of time. its stress thinking of wad to do....carn both side jus giv in!?!?!
i'm sry if i offended anyone in this post...but this matter had made me scared of goin to skol. how do i face them? by acting ignorant? bimbo? i carn do it...
anw....sci paper1 is 25 outta 30 n maths paper1 is 44 outta 50. and this didnt even cheer me up. apologies to choir seniors too. didnt go for choir today. sryy...hoping for someone to guide me out of this place where there seems no end....i'm reali lost this tym. 0 comments

she cried in skol today...i was shocked...it was a sudden break down. or maybe it was muh fault. or maybe it was their fault? or maybe is was our fault? i dunno...but she cried. she jus break down. i followed viv to the toilet to see her. ok...saw her senior there. she went into a cubicle and cried all her heart out. then one by one our grp came in. or her 'enemy'. her intention was for us to go out. we gav in..we went out,bak to class. there,we argued. they were talking bad loudly bout her when she was jus sitting right behind them. i cld hear them in front....i knew she felt bad. i pitied her...i ask them to lower down their volume..all in vain. soon after she came out...but when she saw us outside the toilet,she rushed bak in. dunno wad to do,we went bak. leaving 2 to console her. we might be her 'enemy',she might be our 'enemy'. but we're all classmates. wld we stand there,do nth n laff at her? impossible...theres still at least a bit of feeling there..whyy carn the little feeling turn slightly bigger? maybe all these wld'nt had happened?
yupss...so the 2 did a great job. 3of them came bak. looking worried...2 of them kno how she felt n think. maybe we're too harsh towards her. maybe we shld hav gav her that 3rd chance. but we're all thinking...wld she backstab us again? wld there be anothr chance that theres anothr prob? haix... i'm confused..seriously confused. both sides are right and wrong...but its up to me to choose since both sides doesnt wan to giv in. YES,there may be a chance for her to backstab me again....but i can see the gd change in her since the beginning of the prob. i shld hav given her the chance. NO,by goin wif her,or giving her that chance,i might lose quite a number of gd fwens. but izzit worth it to lose a number of fwens n go wif her,alone? n oso risking the chance of being backstabbed once again? i'm reali confused...this prob hav been bugging me for such a long tym n i guess i shld hav vent it all out. haizz...wad prevented me frm making the decision is my conscience. by choosing 1 among the both sides...they hav been my gd fwens...but izzit rong to make a new fwen? they dun like her..but wadd if i giv her the chance? wld my fwen ignore me jus to avoid her? i wld'nt kno wld i? they hate her being emotional...always crying all the time. n crying...always let her win. shes at fault in the 1st place n wad rights do she got to cry?! she jus wan us to pity n giv in to her. it may seems that crying helps. but in fact,it do not. its only making matter worse...it lets ppl kno that u're in the rong thats why u cry. they think it this way. but hav they considered her feelings? when she heard them talking bad bout her right in front of her,how wld she feel? i bet if i was the one,i wld hav cried on the spot. it was brave for her to hold her tears at that tym....
i guess its obvious that i'm stuck right in the middle. wad can i do? can anyone tell me? i've always been trying to please both sides. hoping they wld giv in n become fwens one day. but things only get worse. seriously i'm sick of this...i'm definitely breaking down sooner or later. its jus the matter of time. its stress thinking of wad to do....carn both side jus giv in!?!?!
i'm sry if i offended anyone in this post...but this matter had made me scared of goin to skol. how do i face them? by acting ignorant? bimbo? i carn do it...
anw....sci paper1 is 25 outta 30 n maths paper1 is 44 outta 50. and this didnt even cheer me up. apologies to choir seniors too. didnt go for choir today. sryy...hoping for someone to guide me out of this place where there seems no end....i'm reali lost this tym.